If i wrote you a symphony..
so nice.
I like the song.
yesterday night was right/wrong?
I don't know.
I only know i wasn't neutral.
ohwells.
*smiles*


I don't know why but i don't really like what I wrote before. See,
even parthe told the same thing. That my blog is emo nowadays and her
doesn't like it.
AIYAH fuck it la.
hahahahahaa.

OMG SPEECH LATER!
impromtu somemore.
HOPE I don't die seriously.
I HAVE TO PUT ALL OF IT BEHIND ME!
I know i can do it.
but she was so disappointing today.
like ^%^$%$&^$*^%^^.
so different from yesterday.
SIGH

OKAY WISH ME LUCK.
speech in few minutes time!

LALALALALALALALALALA.
;]

=)

This is it. I realised i have been drowning myself into too much of emotional stuff that it's been talking away my energy(?). It's
unfair to myself .I guess I thought too much at the point of time. Chairman said loving someone is painful. Well to me, it
was not that loving the someone part which was painful( i realised quite sometime ago), it's when you expect too
much out of it. That's when it kills you because you're disappointed. It did kill me to the point i wouldn't even know why i was
crying. Killed me right there but that was then.

Thinking ahead, I have a goal. To do better in life. To stop expecting. I'll let the longing feeling go for that complete feeling.
If it comes, it'll come. That's what I feel right now. The love still continues for the people around me. That wouldn't
change. I am going to give my best in everything I do. For school and for dance.I am so going to get all those techniques and
sharper movements in. I am going to sleep early everyday from now on so that i don't get the headaches i normally
do the next day when i don't have enough sleep.( weekends are an exception. CONFERENCES with Baby G's)
( heckthe spelling).

I just want to concentrate.
I want to be a better woman.
for one person.
myself, Lavanya.
=)

I'll do it.
*smiles*

and my Dear friends and family,
I love you all!


Imaflirt and spoon,
The two people who made me realise sides of me I never knew and you guys are partly the reason how I am the person I am
right now and i thank you for everything.
I love the two of you.
more than you know.( however much.)

Love,
L.



spoon, your lasagne was ORGASM to the IC.
*hugs*

p.s: ashley, as long as you like, it doesn't matter. =)