i feel good. Can you name 11 people? [ hell yeah, i love advertising/PR remember?) ;) 1.Arsalan 2.Sarah 3.L-ly 4.Johnny 5.Jess 6.Huda 7.Debbie 8.Ashley 9.Jochan 10.Adorable 11.ginaCUTIE How did you meet 10? haha IN MI. When she was doing something with her shoes and I told her to be careful. my ag. What would you do if you had never met 6? I wont know I had sucha love for cheesecake, dance and hang up(s) with bfs. Oh and CURLS LOVE. What would you do if 6 and 2 dated? WOHO. heavenly. I'll direct a movie with them. competition for L-word i swear. SARAH and HUDA. ultimate man. hot meets hot(?) GEISHA MEETS CURLS. OMG. Have you ever seen 4 cry? Nope and I don;t want to. now or ever. she is myheart. ;) Do you think 1 is cute? i thought he was. Tell me something about number 11 She thinks she's the cutest. haha she is! How do you know 8? In MI. same class, but we "knew" each other because of katek(?) on the 8th of feb on MSN *tada* ;) Would you ever go on a date with number 5? hmph. Interesting question. what would be doing? BUTTONS? haha LOL. What's 7's favorite color? Green I think. I like lime green on her.It suits her. ;) my queen look good on anythign though What would you do if 6 confessed he/she liked you? ohboy. i'll. actually i dont know. *thinks* she won't la. She's like HOW straight please. ;) Fact about 9: she's so I-dont-know and she's lost most of the time. and FUMBLE QUEEN who I fell in love with and a deep sexy voice when she wakes up in the morning (on the phone ah! no other thoughts laaaa) Who is 4 going out with? haha me. I WISH. hmm i think she's single still. SOMEONE GOT CHANCE LUH! huh somebody. 100bp. who is number 5 to you? she is my pg from NRA who does the ARCH-ing so goddamned well even the girls go.. WOHOOOOOO HOT! Would you ever live with 11?? wow that'll be fun! hell yeah. i can tickle her all night and kiss her too! HEEE =X Is 2 single? nope. shared between me and her boyfriend. haha KIDDING. She's with someone-my son. Where does 7 live? in my heart. LOL signature park. so close to MI. What do you think about 3? She is so "there" all the time. She knows everything. She knows how I feel even though i don't ell.my loyal fanpls! haha My L-ly. no one can replace you. What's the best thing about number 8? her ability to know EVERTYTHING and her nice-ness and the things she does for her loved ones, beat that man. and she knows me too well its getting scary. =X What do you like about number 10? i like her xoxoxo face, a html skills. i just like her company. =p Favorite Memory with 2? hmph*thinks* too many can. but I'll choose that day when i was putu mayam-ing with her in SU. OBSERVING her is heavenly. haha frenching? LOL. This feels good to do this thing. It reminds me why life is worthwhile. ;) oh did i mention, AUGUST & SEPTEMBER are like THE BIRTHDAY MONTHS? so many. I'll put em'up soon! Okay off to meet the salt 'n' pepper gang! yay.

full up heyy. a random thought: singlehood= good? hehs. This is what I need very badly: *session with jochan, johnny,ginacutie,ashley,adorable,felix ;) *sleep, lots of it. *Camp. *Time *holidays. *Dance * fun-ing time with lina,jaime,mich,shafik,evan,fiza,star,parthe,hannah( doll girl! =p) haha this sounds like camp time. *sarah spoon time. * time for myself. *class outing during holidays *meet up with MI loves. Phecda 2 + 06A1. * cheesecake session with LINA, SHARIFFA, REINA. ( i havent had one since late june/early july) *sarah session * phone chat with my divine. * some leia time to just L&L. haha i miss that. before i forget, somebody made my day today. was like oh yeah my baggave me that damn AUUURGH smile and looking shyly downwartds at the same time as well OMGGGGG. That smile was enough to say that school in]s not hell ; just that moment. like une momento of light.( parthe yes! this is what i was talking about! you know who. heee =X) PARTHE + ME: 1:48:36 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: hahaa 1:48:37 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: you ah 1:48:50 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: oh i am getting a mohwak lik naima's 1:48:51 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:48:55 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: from top model 1:49:03 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: WATTT???? 1:49:10 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: HOTT SHITT!! 1:50:02 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: yes 1:50:03 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:50:05 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: in nov 1:50:09 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: before dance 1:50:11 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: YAY 1:50:13 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: ;] 1:50:24 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: now girls will flock to me first parthe 1:50:24 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahahaha 1:50:28 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: move over 1:50:43 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: as if they're flockin to me now itself..d 1:50:52 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: damn it im still single arh.. 1:51:01 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: well look around you 1:51:03 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:51:21 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: sometime the ppl who matter the most might be just around 1:51:21 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:51:23 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: ;) 1:51:32 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: ooohh.. 1:51:39 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: like whoo?? 1:51:44 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: i dont know 1:51:45 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:51:50 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: randomly saying 1:51:50 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: ;] 1:51:54 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: goondu.. 1:51:56 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahahaha' 1:52:10 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: k before i start to flirt i shall call it a nite 1:52:14 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: what goondu 1:52:15 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: wahah 1:52:20 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: flirt seh 1:52:21 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: aiyah 1:52:25 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: parthe i know you like me 1:52:27 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: admit it 1:52:28 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: hahha 1:52:28 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahaha 1:52:29 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: LOL 1:52:36 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: i don like u.. 1:52:41 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: i love u.. 1:52:45 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: wahhh 1:52:50 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: confession 1:52:56 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: ur one of the most unfake ppl in nmass comm.. 1:52:57 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahaha.,. 1:53:15 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: id die if nt for u la 1:53:18 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: wth 1:53:26 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: stop makingme look as if i 1:53:27 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: damn 1:53:30 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: good 1:53:34 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: lol 1:53:42 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: ahahaha.... 1:53:44 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: kk lav.. 1:53:50 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: id btrr go.. 1:53:53 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: see la.. 1:53:56 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: no heart.. 1:53:57 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: ahaha 1:54:28 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: hahaha 1:54:32 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: awwwwwww 1:54:38 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: i i=kiss you next time 1:54:42 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: for sure already 1:54:43 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: die la you 1:54:44 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: haha 1:54:46 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: woots.. 1:54:48 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: aiyo.. 1:54:51 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: my godd.. 1:54:53 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: i dieee.. 1:55:04 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahaha.. 1:55:05 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: wait then 1:55:09 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: byeeeeee 1:55:11 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: godnight you 1:55:12 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: ;) 1:55:24 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: my patience wears thin pretty easily u know.. 1:55:25 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: my friend said i am one too 1:55:26 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: hahaha.. 1:55:32 AM suicide_incorparated88@hotmail.com: haha.. 1:55:35 AM lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com: so lets go get marreied well thats how our convo goes. parthe is such a nice guy. had three if what i see in a guy. 1) true to himself 2) true to others 2) takes me for who I am. ;)

We are getting this back, couldn't be better! WOHO. and no parthe, my posts aren't emo nor sadder incomparison to before. maybe just the way i write. or? I LOVE ADORABLE (only i know why and for once, ima keep it to myself! ;) ]

note: eh HUDA BUDDHA! haha. fail GP, come findme okay. My english is like SO MANY MANY the pro can! but then again I think I'll be laughing my ASS( woho) out la becauseof the STUPID stuff you do, say, the jackass face and YOURE SUPERRRRDERRR HIGGH AUNTIFIED voice which i heard during carnival! SHOCKED CAN! okay go do your gp and don't stay up too late okay? if only some people didn't PROCASTINATE stuff. heh heh. i know it's difficult but BELIEVE. BE OPTIMISTIC and CARPE DIEM PLS! ;) My first visit to the physio therapist! ;) enriching exciting painful to a certain extent amusing HOT hopeful. I need this real badly. I need to recover. I love the physio doc. She's.. how nice and *ahum* haha sarah you know! oh did i tell? for the S&W module right, since I am not able to play and all I will be graded based on an assignment on.. Soccer? *DANG* on Knee Injuries.. haha HOW APT! NRA- dance my sorrows away. =D After that a 61 back to school to watch my NRA-ians at dance. Just thought of it, it's just few more months. Damn when I look at the dance, my feets are like almost going to stand and the mind says," No, lavanya!". DAMN ME HARD MAN! ;( Anyway, hannah was saying that I looked thinner! *smiles*. Judging by what? my BOOBIES( are you hearing this reina chan?TURN ON ALREADY? hehs.) and then I was disturbing jaeyi( jaychou haha I'm jlo) how "hers" got bigger and they were like, " eh lav you transfer ah?" HAHHA LOL PLS. then jaeyi went," small is cute okay, big got more chances of breast cancer!" HAHAHA. I heart my dance mates. They are like so damn supportive of me in whatever I do and they never fail to liven my wednesday mood up.( after all the overdose of deadlines bleahs..) Audrey, Farid, Ore, Vicks,Shaomin, Matthew, Alfred,Hannah. ALL OF YOU ARE LOVE ;] and of course as of always,my spoon nehs. =p. I hope you liked our incomplete drawings-words-book. steph and lav heart love sarah. ;) Just school OH I SAW GINA TODAY! That's like thrice in a week already. Everday so far and I love it cos oh baby, she keeps me high! * gives a hot look* LOL. but we so couldn't whore with the camera.. QUITE SAD. never minds gina, another day will come and I'll whore with you!( oops so wrong) and and, I miss my class. T104. ;( thank god i saw atleast a few of them today. FILMING TOMORROW. fun but tiring. so little time and i am suppose not suppose to be here. and.. latest edition, I am feeling things i shouldn'tbe feeling, I THINK. OH OH he's such a BOOKIE. laaaadeedum.

I stiill believe in love being um mysterious ;] Inbox From: my divine Date: 25/07/2006 Time: 21:37 "Miss Lavanya! This is a gentle reminder that your old friend here Jo Jo Bo Bo didn't forget you and you're currently on her mind now!" OMG I swear It's freakshow! I was just thinking about my divine because my sis was telling how joanne returned a t-shirt she had borrowed from her( haha I wanted to take it and get my sis to buy another t-shirt so that I can keep it and joanne's smell..EWW ;) ] Hey! My daughter okay. Well one of them. She ah she. I noticed her on the FIRST day of orientation!( ashley beat you already la!) TAO like hell can but she was about the only other one with short SASSY hair like mine and sporty and all so OBVIOUSLY I'll notice and of course, very pretty :). Agree with Lavanya people! And then when we got into our respective classes, mine was 06A1! LOVE YOU GUYS MAN. =D. I saw her there i was like OHMY. haha. Damn scared to talk to her but slowly yeah we started when she was guessed who I like and all. Haha she knew my love life TOOOOO well ;] Then for my birthday she did this board like thing. Well it was so sweet. I mean I hardly knew her but well that's why she's my divine. :) The words from her board to me: (I still have it in that BOB plastic bag y'know divine!) "hey Lovely! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to Miss Lovely Lavanya! HAPPY LOVELY EIGHTEEN TO YOU ;) You are eighteen already! That sounds old! hahah. I sincerely hope that this day would be a wonderful one for you, and that spending it with your pals at Millenia would hold a special place in your heart! I've always enjoyed your outgoing-ness and cheerful-ness and I hope that you will continue to brighten up the many others of your life. :) Pardon me for my jagged handwritting the base isn't exactly smooth! Anyways, I still don't understand why you call me DIVINE?Is it because I'm so irresistable and Heavenly?! Hahaha. Oh wells, It's sad that we have to part in wweek's time. so sucky! Just when I found superb superb fantabulous friends! Ohwells. Let's treasure the short time we have together alright! Once again, wishing you a happy happy Birthday! :D Lavanya is just so lovely, She is always bright and cheery! She is so funny ; It tickles my tummy! Sporty's her name. and soccer's her game. And I am her one and ONLY!" see? exactly. You are my one and only divine and so i wrote her a poem. Wanna see, adorable? 28/2/06 at the canteen: "Joanne :) I long to see you everyday just to make you happy because seeing you smilling makes me happy. You seem to know me even from a distance love, with that killer look and that vivacious smile. Leaving to me wonder, whyit that i feel just the same when i see the things you do and how you chase everyone's blues. Divine you definitely have somethiing mystical; so magical that it draws people across all radicals/ Darling, you gave me hope when I said nope. You gave me smiles, when I was tears. Baby, y ou gave me love to make me believe that all's well when you are around, my love. Just wanna let you know, that my heart's filled with your warmth when you're around and boo, you're my beautiful. :) I'll miss you.. my friend, my divine, my only mine." Long eh? Well she was that special and still is. ;) I loveeeee the way sometimes she goes so blurr. haha note: only at times and when you actually see it, OMG. xoxoxo. With her silly and rubbish antics. Divine remember when we took 173 this day when I gave you the poem to clementi bus station and we alked over this water fountain thing with ashley chickening out to cross? haha now that's fun! I am so glad I know you love and I miss you SOO MUCH and your school is like so near to my place but still i hardly see you. I MISSS YOU. I heart my divine, my only mine.

Let's Work It Out. [ the name of the song onmy blog by raghav. hot indian vibe to it. and it means alot] NOTE :THIS IS A LONG LONG POST! If you're interested in DANCING, CHILDHOOD LOVE, FLIRTING IRRITATING OLD MEN( eeeeeee), KL then go on. =) [replies to the tags below]. Hey. I'm back home after a very fulfilling and SHY-ing ;) trip to Kuala Lumpur.( for those who didn' t know). We reached KL at like 9 plus on Friday but so many things happened! Somehow there was this thing that was constantly lingering at the back of my mind- school when I get back. It's not like I am not enjoying MCM but I could do without it for awhile more. I guess I'd have to do my best till the end of this sem and then... I get to play again! hehe ;] I am so looking forward to that so I need to work hard! I had the time to clear my head and heart about the different things that have been affecting me and I'm glad I agreed to go on this trip. That guy whom my family disturb me with all the time? Well, when I'm with him, I don't feel anything at all. We don't even have to talk but he knows all.Like remember the Ribena incident? Well alot happened at the party. I wonder how.( that damn virgo! *beams*) So let me go on about yesterday's party. It was held at this hotel called The Istana. coolios. OHBOY.. Key things of yesterday.I SAVED THE BEST ONE FOR THE LAST- DANCING. ;] *the birthday girl looked so beautiful, ** A girl came on to me strong! *yucks to this cos i wasnt really um in the mood to play along. YIKES~ ******A man, I repeat, A MAN chatted me up. A 40 plus man who yes, did look good for his age but eww =/ **** and yes the dancing queen and king reunited once more on the dance floor and boy did they love it! *beams* * My pabi looked so pretty in that outfit. Absolutely gorgeous and Hey she mentioned me in her speech as her favourite niece! =) Well you see she's actually my mum's cousin but her mommy is like few years older to my mum so yeah that explains the age and my pabi is 21. i can't believe it. Once i reached their place, they( him and pabi) were in their rooms. So i headed up and his room was open and Thasha was speaking to *ahem ahem* and I just popped myhead and YOU SHOULDA SEEN THE LOOK ON HIS FACE. Beat it man. That smile.. GRAH. Then her room, but it was locked. So I knocked and she was like "coming." and *door opens* " hoi you ah, what you doing here?" haha you could so see thet excitement written on her face and I wa sso shocked because she lost so much of weight and she looked so pretty. New pg man! wahaha. kidding. Well, back to the point, My pabi looked so beautiful and you know what she said? She agreed that I'm the type who would be applicable to both sexes. WAHAHAHAHHAA~ pls! ** Oh my we were so fooled by that traditional number she performed. Boy could she dance and groove. Woho but then she started um acting weird and i was like out of my comfort zone.. i wasn't in the mood to play along( YIKES). i do this to people normally but when it happens to me, I FEEL WEIRD. *** Haiyo. This cheekok was talking alright at first but then as the conversation went on, it became ewww. damn it and when we were about to leave, this is how he ended the conversation. BLEAHS. " Lavanya, As much as I would like to exchange our expression of affection, I can't because of certain circumstances [asshole this cheekok was a married man! but his family wasn't there and my mum was looking at my direction]. I wished we had gone on more.( YUCKS) You are very cute. You dance very well and very smooth and, SEXY especially for that song, Buttons.( I SOOOO Shouldn't have! =/) I presume you like black( he looks at my bra strap, I was wearing an off shoulder! now i regret) and I'm sure you'll look good in IT.( OMG stop it pls)n and your lips.. they are.. smooth( FUCKER!!! and i so wished i could just move away ,but i didn't want to be rude) and your eyes..they are sexy..hmm ( and gives me 'that" look. Fook DAMN IT!)" and thank god my mum called across the rooom to go off. PHEW. I was like so helpless la. grah. I hate good looking old men. =/ HERE COMES THE BEST!*beams* *** AH.*smiles* this was the best. I didn't even see it coming. okay here's a thing, when I was younger i would call him this particular way *shys* and they used to disturb me with that because I called him something only a um a wife would call a husband? =p. Tell me about it! So we went up to KL when i was like 5 years old for this function and his cousins from his dad's side came too and we played and all and they were the one who started disturbing me la, calling him like that. BUT I LIKE WHAT! HAHAHAHA. So whenever we ALL meet up and I'm around and they see they'd be like " eh this's the girl Lavanya right? The one who calls Renesh..." and they all start giggling and I'll shy and he will too. Well the SAME thing happened yesterday. They saw me from afar and they were looking at me and then when i went up to them because my sis was there and they went. " Oh my god aren't you Lavanya? where's your..? HAHAHAHA" SHoot me pls and at that exact time he had to come and well you know what happened. Paiseh man! And then they went on and on about what we used to do when we(him&me) were younger. How we held hands. How we rocked dancing and well then you know what they were looking forward to.. and so it happened. This Hot number came one, which we once grooved to before. Our Song. A classic thing for my family. Once the song came, somehow like automatically, my eyes searched for him,they fell upon him and his were looking right back at me with that ;) and we knew it. Somehow the dancers seemed to have spread and we moved into the center ,looked at each other, smiled and we MOVED. and once i was in it, everything else just didn't seem to bother to me. I could see the whole family soo watching us, cheering us on and enjoying it. We were like the counterparts. I felt so connected and you know when you dance with another person there's a certain connection ? Well I felt all of it baby! It was like me dancing, but the male version. Coudn't be more...PERFECT. *big smile* He's going back to brisbane on the 27th but he wants to come over to Singapore. i so wonder how he's gon do that because his flight is from KL. So it has really got be a short trip. The nicest part is I get along with his mum, dad and sister so well and family means alot to me so yeah that's pretty much very important to me. I so didnt want to leave today to come back but i'm just hoping they'd come over soon. Think it's either on Tuesday or Wednesday. Ima wait! =p The thing is, we were so close when we so much younger and then sorta like grew apart. Also very shy to talkmost of the time because the moment we talk, like just say a simple thing as hello or hi and somebody from The family sees that's it, DISTURB US LIKE HELL man. =X But, the dancefloor is where our hearts speak and dancing is our language.. ;) TAG replies: prashant: hey you. COOL. I tried going to parthe's blog to see where your link was but it ain't linked? something to do with memoirs right? ;) ash: wow fae says hi! HEY FAE ;] and HEY DI-LYS. Your cute girl right? haha now now ashley don't get jealous ah. You know I still love you LIKE THE MOST-est right? you know I do and yeah i stil fell the same about what i said. It is true. Happy people are somehow a saddist inside. ohwells atleast i live to make people happy. It's worth living for. LIke for you ;] and boy do yousound so excited about tagging my board. my bOARD LOVES ASHKEYYY! ( note: typo on purpose!) rae: I know love and I am so fortunated but you know, shit happens at times and they all come togethere and it doesn't really help when umm being the person I am,i wont tell anyone cos i don't want them to worry. But I know i always got you. See you tomorrow daughter. ;] hudz: yeah you did. haha you know ashley being themost loved by me right, well she got to read our convo and she saidit was damn funny! haha you la you poop. make me beg and beg somemore my heart weak you know. Bully me! Just because youre my PG! nyahahaha. and no love I ain't bethrothed! Why you won't stand a chance ah? *winks* No la its just the way my family behaves. haha they are like waiting for any moment for both if us to tell them we are in love or something. FAMILY FAMILY. Don't worry la, you can still have me of you want! WAHAHAHAHHAHAH =P mr FELIX:Hey you! I linked youup already! Omg i just saw your reply to my tag on your board I got to tell HUDA this! haha. how are you? Hope the ankle's well ;] hearts. Jess~: I know you ll be. You already have. That's all I know and we all now. We so admire you for makinf us feel homely when we entered NRA and i so love that thought. The thought that counts and is still is. Remember what I made you do for True or dare? HAHA man you GOT TO LOVE ME JESS! hahahahaa. you have me tooo love ;] note: ohboy that ARCH! ginaCUTIE: yay! irritate ASHKEY!new life motto pls! ILIKE =D so easy right? I know gina pussy! LOL I am okay now and I know i always got you. We all should go out more and boy do i look good in that picture we took that day at canteen one! MEI NU right? I KNOW =D. heeeee. ash: yay! then can irritate you more! I irritate you=I love you! haha. yes yes I am back and you ah got me a new healthy competitor! Not bad, she can be my enemy! up to my standard man! JING EH. haha oh so its the youtube.I almost had one up but decided not to cos they didnt have the embeded code so yeah. okay I ll try not to put em up so that you can visit. you know i do ;] hudz: no. haha. It was just a statement. You STILL have me! LOL. l-ly: I am so sorry L-ly. My phone wasn;t on auto-roaming and yeah I just got back from K.L. I missed you so much you know. hows you? sure got miss me right? hehehehe ;)

I know you wanna dance with me. Come on take a chance with me. I am going to see him again after almost year and yeah it’s not like we really lost contact or something. We still spoke on MSN and all and damn he’s getting hotter as the year goes. My sis and his sis lovvve to watch us do the silly things we do. Like how SHY I become around him and that constant grin on his face when he’s around me. He took care of me sooo well when we were younger and I used to go over to KL. Hold my hands. I’d follow him. Gimme anything he gets first and supposedly we were the ULTIMATE dancers when it came to dancing and like my WHOLE family disturbs us together. Can you imagine? My family is one crazy bunch.( sounds familiar.. where?hmph) This one instance when my family and all were over in KL two years back, we went to Megamall for disco bowling and so we ordered drinks( milo, I am innocent!. Haha at that time). So that Milo was on the table. His sis was sitting beside me. My sis was sitting infront of us. After he had his turn to bowl he walked towards the table and I was feeling thirsty so I reached for the milo and he also reached for it, then BOTH of us withdrew then both of us reached out for it. Hahah shys. After few hours, So the party is in few hours. There's dance remember? I so know what my damily is gonna make me do and honestly, i wouldn't mind doing it too. *beams* And right now when I am writing this, I don’t know if he saw me coughing or something, he gave me that look( hyperventilates) and went into the kitchen, and came back with ribena,chilled just like how I love it and gave it to me. My mum's just laughing away with his mum and hearing this, my aunts are coming in to have a laugh and my sis just gave me that look. Be prepared guys, I think they might just get me married off.

I don't know Brian took this during locvid last friday. it expplains a whole lot about what's been happening and what I'm going through. screwed. Leading me to believe happy people are actually so much of a saddist inside because they tend to spread the happiness around them and sadly not any for themselves or keep all the negative energy un-spreaded( such a word?) but bottle it up all inside. I fell hard Very Hard ohh I dont know. Hope this break will do me good. take care y'all. EspeciallyBIG JESS. The thing about life is , problems all come at funny times and all at the darn same time. take your time. feelin' you. =/. heart you and Sarah , you didn't pick up my calls nor reply msgs, heart you. hope everything's okay with what we talked about. Life isn't easy nor is Love. Life's a bitch .

HELLO the starting of the day all the way to now was terrible terrible. actually i dont know. I dont know if what i'm doing is what I want to do. even dancing doesn't bring me back to earth. =/ I dont know. We're filming overnnight tonight! Like waiting for Jorge to come!( he's our Lead character!) AND... ( adorable hear this!).. YOU ARE NOT MY PG! you are my AG....how can you be my pg! haiyar~ My pg(s) are in no random order in my own words.. HOW EXCITING! 1) pg 2) orh ba san 3) dum didy dum 4) bowler bowler 5) the heart 6) spoon you go figure! one is like OMG. the other's back is wonderful-THAT ARCH! one nore!I like the hair( nope not the curls! hehe!) and the confidence. mixed blood! and then the CUTENESS one. then the other with the CHEMISTRY! and then the one with WOWOWO. I swear I am sucha BI! what a confession! haha. Ashley must be happy! WOOTS

She wants to MOVE. Some pictures to jump start with, wife&um WIFE ? LOL The innocent self proclaimed son. ;] I wonder who Vicks saw.hmph ROARRR! That's a REAL tattoo which means "HOT" in chinese! My wife right.. I KNOW. =D the so FATED people- Nicole&Lav AND, I AM SO IN LOVE WITHCARMEN AND SHANE! ( OHMYGOD!!!! *hyperventilates*)
the L word is the HOTYUM. I just realised the L word suits me man, LAVANYA , L? WOHO. =)

when you touchin' me like that, step back and catch my breath. Touch my body by making the band 3 is just awesoome. My knee's pretty much still screwed but I'm just moving to the sensual beats. sexy yo. LOOK AT THIS PICTURE! I TOOK IT AT THE FMS BLOCK. AT THE MECHANICAL ENGINEERING LAB DPT! THE words um AROUSED ME! haha GRINDING SECTION. ;] These boards just don't stop there. They have others too. WELDING! umm CUTTING THEORY and for someone like me, you know... HAHA it's not just what I see. I LIKE THIS PICTURE and I copyrighted it! and here is somethng from Adorable's blog, "LEARNT SOMETHING NEW!! HEHEHE SHOW U ALL OKAY. LAVI LAVI BOM BI VI BAN-NA-LA-FEL-LA BOM BI VI FI FA BOM BI VI LA-VI!!! ok if u guys dun get it den... TOO BAD HAHAH" CRAZY girl. haha Adorable I just love her tooo much. So hyper and nice and we sooo love to suan Ashley with Gina( i miss you ,you poo!). These two cuties. Yum i can have them anytime please! =D After two very saddening week of not dancing I went for practice with the intention of dancing and *dang* Mr Knee had chosen to feel "hurt" today. So well yeah Istill CAN'T DANCE!... SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD PLS! i just hope it gets better within the next twoo weeks or something. I got physio coming up though.. I THINK. God pless Mr Knee please. The week's been hell. I just realised I don't say much about school. Well, we had LOCVID on friday and we had to experiment with LIGHTINGS so all we did was PICTURES PICTURESPICTURES! The cam was so our whore but the rest of the friday was just occupied with marketing and all. I have a quiz next tuesday and media update to do. I finally found an article. and OHMY getting the house address *cough* of a *cough* certain SOMEONE* cough cough* WAS SOOOOO TASKFUL! HAHAHAHAHHAA. I tell you I have NEVER pleaded like that before. HARD TO GET SOMEMORE. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. BOX YOU UP AND KICK YOU UP TO SANTA THEN YOU KNOW! but then mission was accomplised after a very long long talk! I please and please and please. Say someone pretty la, skinny la EVERYTHING I COULD SAY I DID...so guilty you know, sucking up and all.WOOTS. hehe. BUT ANYWAY. its done =D now just wait mydear. Nope I won't STALK you. haiya..not my worth! MUAHAHAHAHHA. =p So tomorrow, i need to * finish up studying for marketing * read up iin newspapers for consultation * do media update!( yay i found an article!) and * collate the CATS stuff. and SARAH?( haha you know what I'm feeling)* youre dangerous, I'm lovin' it!* hehe. ice cream hearts spoon. knees hearts nehs and Lav hearts Th. no Sarah. :) oh btw did i mention that parthe wrote an entire entry about me? haha click on his name to view it! good night y'all. and johnny is such good company to talk to at night like now. Heart you my heart. =)

I Thank You

My dear friend, I got back. I'm grateful. I'm Sorry and I was so Scared. Now it's all settled. All new. Iheart you. I thought I lost you. I nearly did.

Un-Mendable Heart A deviation by ~HisNameIsNothing (© 2003-2006) Un-Mendable Heart - Complete Piece You broke my heart so long ago, And its finally started to mend. Then here you are suddenly, Infront of me again. You smile the smile you used to smile, When you looked into my eyes. It brings back these damned memories, I've tried to just let die. You're no longer who you used to be, Who I loved so much. However I still love that person, And long for his touch. Unfortunatly hes gone, And will probably never return. I miss that love I loved so much, The love I deaply yearn. So here you are infront of me, But so far from my grasp. I cant forget these memories, Cant keep them in the past. Friends dont understand, I'm not sure I even do. I pray I soon forget, Just how much I miss you. but I can never say it out. What's love? a temporary you? -LAV-

I ice cream you ;] I promised pictures( right below!) of us the day they came to surprise me. When myDATE( chan mali chan ;] ) sent me the pictures I was thinking it'd be just few pictures but WOW it was more than I expected and going through the pictures i couldn't help but just smile and think through what happen on monday. *beams* Chris shocked me first! with his sudden entrance! ANYWAY. I left off at the part when they surprised me at the TOILET!. and NO I didn't ignore you guys ADORABLE. I was just very overwhelmed with all the care, concern and the good friends I have. =) Lina upper lip , jaime HOTPURR , steph AUDIOPORN surprised me with a big card-board thing. BEAUTIFUL ;)done by the UPPER LIP, LOWER LIP, AUDIO PORN and HOT PURRR.and then all of a sudden I saw FIDA! "if you wanna come to my hotel! haha" and yes I was the GIANT and you the small one! It was so good to see you. It was like one surprise after another. SURPRISE RELAY. hurhur. So we went ahead to the bus stop to take bus to go to KAP ( sorry guys!) so i went, why not walk? I also need to train up my knee and SO, WE WALKED. I'm telling y'all I became like the soldier for bravo because gina and adorable kept on shooting water at her. Don't BULLY her okay. haha her heart's mine. LALALA. Jo Chan was so cute in her IJ uniform and it was soo sweet of her to carry myBOARD, Thank you date. My board was so much more safer in you hands. =) and Mr Felix too! He should be named Mr Fun instead. So we entered KAP and something was different. Very little MI oh wait the usual MI-ians, Mgs-ians weren't there as in there are always groups and groups of them. So we went in! Started to talk and andll I swear GINA loves TO BULLY ME( more like i let her please because I love her! =D ) and now and then I got a look at Adorable's XOXOXOXO face. SOOOOOO CUTEEEE! hahahaha. =X Actually,I wasn't suppose to eat Mcdonald's as well but you know like the place, it leaves me with happy memories all the time and I'd wanted that day to be there. =) Thanks Bravo for coming with us despite you not eating mcdonald's and WHACKING that chicken drumstick up! Her face was practically inside the wrapper! heee >.< well here you go with the pictures! I have a thing for REINA and carolineeeeeeeee.( by the WET woman and MEAN woman, not me pls!) NOPE and I AM NOT BOOBIES! sheesh! REINA lovesssssss this. ahum I wonder why. *coughs* haha. an attempt to be sexy. adorable=xoxoxoxo, jochan - >.< one word- SPASTIC :) errrrr. i look so BIG beside her. I'm my technical heart'sSOLDIER. look at the EYES. damn BESAR man! not mine! haha. trying my very best! HAHA KAP toilet is our REDLIGHTAREA and the cam is OUR WHORE. =p the picture i like the most! LOVE Y'all! =D auto message: I AM NOT A FLIRT JOHNNY! hahaha

from deviantart ; thanks. open letter to broken hearts A deviation by ~girldisrupted (© 2006) open letter to broken hearts - Complete Piece



We write pages of what it means to love and hurt and let go. There are bruises that fade, scars that don't, and broken bones that never heal back into the way they were. There are train platforms. Airport departure halls. Unfinished mugs of coffee, stained with lip gloss. Unmade beds. [And the words 'I love you' trapped on the lips of men and women who have no one to speak to.] In this italicized version of love-not-given, we whisper into parentheses of hope that aren't hopeful at all cause we're always walking away or standing still while someone else turns their back on us. And yet we still keep coming back for more. Why do we insist on falling in love over and over when we inevitably fall out? We crash to the ground with sickening thuds and arms that snap like twigs because they no longer have anyone to hold. And we don’t learn from our mistakes. Apparently I am the Mistress of Not Learning From My Mistakes, with my dedicated naivety [foolishness] to the art of tripping over and over again. Over my own feet. Or his careless leg, stretched out, unaware of the people around him. And it's not a specific "He" that comes to mind in this moment that does not want to end – but rather the collective mass of faces that I have christened Rejection. [Failure] So why do we do it? Why do we have to spend the rest of our lives with one person? And why are we made to feel like shit [less than shit] if we're alone? I'm 25. Single. And apparently according to the society I live in – on the threshold of spinsterhood. [And there is no knight in shining armour to sweep you over this threshold. Instead you step over with your own two feet into your condemnation.] Fuck that. That isn’t what concerns me. What concerns me is that I am alone and I'm tired of being alone. But I'm also tired of caring. I'm tired of beginnings despite their excitement and the flutters in my stomach when I wonder if he cares, if he thinks about me, if I'm reading into things more than I should. I am tired of waiting for something to happen despite the pure joy of finding out that you were right and that he did want you and then he kisses you and it's like you feel alive for the first time. Ever. He teaches you how to breathe and you never want things to change. But they change. Or things could go in the opposite direction at breakneck speed. Because what if it isn’t pure joy that waits at the end of this road[in a ditch by the side of a back street]. What if it's another rejection. [Remember I am one who doesn’t learn from her mistakes. Or so I've been told]. What if he would only say 'You shouldn't have said that' or 'You shouldn't have thought that.' Or worse. What if there is only silence? And now? There are thoughts of possibilities that are so far away. Plane rides. First times for more things than I care to think of right now. And what ifs. And pain right below my chest. Why do they say the heart is the seat of emotions? Aristotle thought it was the liver. But to me – it is that place between the lungs, below the heart, embedded in the blood that flows but not trapped within the confines of a beating heart. No. It's in the cavity. And rightly so. Because emptiness only seems fitting to be the home for these barren feelings. And I think – take the plunge. Say what has to be said if it means that there's that slightest possibility that you'll hear the words that are waiting to be heard. Somewhere on someone's lips. [And you just have to hope that they are his lips that you will be looking at as he speaks the I love you and he knows that you're waiting for him to kiss you, and he teases you, hesitates just a second longer than you expect… before…] Being alone is a tiresome feeling. And it is tiring to think of the people that you want to be with but you can never be sure of their feelings. Not unless you risk everything. I don’t want my limbs snapped in half. But what good are they now if they have no one to hold anyway? We are the backbone of the broken hearted we always come back for more. If we came together, collided cosmically, do you think you would break my heart or I, yours? I don’t want to be left thinking I should have said something. I could have done something. I am tired. "Why do they say the heart is the seat of emotions? Aristotle thought it was the liver. But to me – it is that place between the lungs, below the heart, embedded in the blood that flows but not trapped within the confines of a beating heart. No. It's in the cavity. And rightly so. Because emptiness only seems fitting to be the home for these barren feelings. " feeling this yo. how true it wasn't suppose to turnout this way. adorable, thanks.=D and ash and jochan and johnny. gina- " 1min sad = lose 60 secs of happiness think about it lav. :)" i know. no worries. I'm sick of it. all. and i feel bad. i didnt want it to turn out this way too. I am sorry.

Oh. Its a SURPRISE! before everything, a video ; SENIORS! watch the wave. hehs. cant wait to get on my feet to SHAKE again! ;] Wow like first day of school. back to lectures and all. It was sooo good to be back in school. My friends were awesome. love you guys. It was sooo great to see allof my classmates, the other coursemates and all. Lunch was at SIM again. I ate beehoon( health concious!). After all the lectures, I headed to the admin office at the FMS block to settle all the MC works. AUDIO PORN( she wants more attention! haha) and I , yeah we walked all the way to the Atrium. Nice talk with her. Sorry baby if i made you guys worried by not telling, I just didn't want you guys to worry. =) SO off to the atrium and then Chris came. He is sooonot himself when he's with me. why so shy? hehe.*you know what you owe me!* then to the toilet and jochan called. " hey where are you?" " in the toilet." "oh no wonder.." haha OKAY. So then I was washing my face and this head just popped in! JO CHAN ( chanmalichan!) then GINA ( >.<) JOHNNY BRAVO! ( ;] ) then.. ADORABLE! ( she scared me! woho) and MR FELIX! ( happy birthday ;] ) I WAS SO HAPPY , I just couldn'y say a word! then came Lina and jaime. WOOTS. a card board like thingy for me. I WAS LOST FOR WORDS! HAPPPPY! how sweet can kids get? HEARTS YOU DAUGHTERS. ;] I HAD THE FUNNNNEST TIME IN KAP PLEASE! saw two if the year 2s studying up for tmrw's maths papers! ALL THE BEST YO! one was from track? yup. ( aha ask them to say hi to huda but spoilt it by telling her about it on MSN *smacks*) GINA with all her hyperness. ;] Adorable with her now and then xoxoxo face. Mr felix- SHOCKED me hard as hell. woho. I was shocked man! haha BUT youre fun and sweet, I LIKE. thanks dear, =D JOCHAN- SOO TOOOT! haha I SOO LIKE. ;] JOHNNY - *beams* what can i say baby? you made my day! soo WOO-ing you! WAH confession! haha i was damn shy in that convo right johnny? what to do! haha. I have to talk more tmrw about them! I HEART you guys. update more later.! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY! ;] more tmrw. WOOTS.

Happy birthday Liyana ; cheese, soft innocent you-know-what-er & silent innocent killer! Liyana the girl whom I saw on the first day of school as introduced by Starshea( god, i miss you!). Petit( don't be fooled! hehe), CURLS and yeah. i didn't reallytalk much but i know youchecked me out! KIDDING. ;] So from day one we have become cheese&chocolate to inside hot killer and silent innocent killer. I love her for her umm HORNY-ness. keeps me awake. oops so wrong.
oi hotstuff, i loveyou okay. IMA GETYOU SOON! I'll bring sarah then we'll threesome together. Eh remember, our story starts soon. YOU, ME , JOSH, BECKS, JUSTIN, ALBA,COLLIN and SARAH?(special request!). Me( sex god?) and you( sex shoot) and hello you are NOT innocent. Ifyoure INNOCENT, then i ll be the thinnest woman on earth.! A TYPICAL low grade conversation!( we can get so high! *shys* Joe Benjz zonked haha wah play hard to get ah 9:31 » hahahaha 9:31 » *tickle tickle* 9:31 Lav HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEESE. ima get you soon! *nothing doing* 9:31 » woho 9:31 » i ma string chick 9:31 » *o 9:31 Joe Benjz zonked hahahhahaha riiight lavv 9:32 Lav HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEESE. ima get you soon! i am 9:32 » ;] 9:32 » i am strong as hell 9:32 » but you made me MELT fo ryou 9:32 Joe Benjz zonked hahahahhahaha 9:32 Lav HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEESE. ima get you soon! *r 9:32 Joe Benjz zonked chocolates 9:32 » ill burn u 9:32 Lav HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEESE. ima get you soon! woho so, my mission is slowly coming as planned. I didnt eat ANY junk food for the whole of the week. I didn't binge( no appetite). I ate on time so when my knees are ready i shall go into my exercise regime and then WOHO, I'll be ready.

the dance is awesome ; HAVTA WATCH!
watch the mohawk chick! one of the best yet. THEY ARE GOOOOOOOOOOOD! espcially the popping for drop it like it's hot and that hot dance for don't cha! NICCCCCCE ;]

all about you PHECDA 2 ;]

okay now this is going to be a long long long entry, more like a photo entry. haha for PHECDA 2-ians. HELLLO GUYS! grab the pictures if you don't have 'em! GODDESS loves you all( god does too!) down the journey ;] here we go! HAHAHA. i miss you mira and deebz. ;( it wasn;t my idea. who am i kidding? hehs. crazy wicked effect- qazz's camera. tonue-ing. hehs. i so miss you guys. hope you like ;]