woho. my day started out today like just so well. for once. I can't really say i had lessons for the 1st part of the day, cos i didn't set my mind on anything xcept for debate. i didn't go for my MT lesson for one. my leia cried today. and i felt just so helpless. its like i feel like i can't say anything or do anything to stop her from tearing. So sad. but well atleast my mouth did, a bit. ha she was laughing away after that.=) thanks mouth. heh. aqila is so on bout her apu. ha. BUTTTTTTTTT she's so damn sweet. that cute 'lil chika. so adorable. she said she love me. I don't know what to say. I am so touched. zaim as well. that pic he toook with me, so personal. =) too bad he's two years younger than me.*hint. no la. nice bud. mitchell OMG, she was the best laugh today. normal wheni tickle someone, they go sooo "ah.oh ew" and they just so figety. but wheni tickled her she was like...... wooooooooo moving her bod as if she was doin a stripdance? 10/10. ha. but the -going to the debate- time in the bus was so tottally funkadellic.- leia's word.haha but the debate was a real bummer. but that girl, oh she was SO PRETTY. no wonder. know why? SHE"S MIXED! ha i knew it! jap-chi-malay mixed. so Funkadelic. ok i'm leia-influenced now. ha. i teared on the way back, i mean we just tried so hard on our side, so a bit unfair? well i dont really care cos it is all over. Now my attention's all diverted too......... *Latin dance* dance, I LIKEEEE.............

Leo July 23 - August 22

You're ready to let the world know how you're feeling, no matter who's there or what their particular opinion might be. Great. Don't let that change, no matter who shows up -- or what they're wearing.

It's all about you today, and there's no reason to feel bad about that. One of the benefits of this situation is that you'll be able to let loose and express your opinions without any fear of reprisal, for many reasons. First off, with the roll you're on, who'd even think of challenging you? (Who in their right mind, that is.) Then, too, there's the fact that you're probably right. Be brave. Say exactly what you think. It's your moment.

I really hope someone's reading this, cos i think... i think ok, she got kinda pissed off today while u know, we guys were in Mac, when we talked bout somethin..Sorry if we hurt you. I love you all the same. =)

stress stress stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think the only thing which makes sense here in singapore is.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. .................................................................................................................................................................. .............................................................................................................................................................. ............................................................................................................................................................. .............................................................................................................................................................. .......................................................................................................... The PEOPLE. well atleast some of em. like MY FRIENDS! and........................... lalalalalla my lips are sealed serene. hmph!

serene i have a msg for you. scroll down. I am listening to NRJ. woho. BEN & JERRYs ICE CREAM. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa leia i hate you! school was OK. mdm ang told me that she would take me out of the latin dance thingie. GROSS. so maybe now, tong tong can dance with didi? right?* hinting. cos i can't dance. I am such a sad idiot. but he still wants to dance with me cos he thinks i am still in it. ha i didn't tell him! DANCE... I LIKE.. especially latin. Ooh lala serene: you are so terribly sweet. i know i didn't say this to u in school but now i am telling u u are so BRIGHT! hahahaha actually printing all those lyrics. you're so fine. =) your husby is so lucky. i must write u a poem soon. i will. cos poem, I LIKEEEEEEEE........

totally disgusting.

wow. they all left me and went. so sad where? to Chevrons' i think. i uploaded some of the pics from yesterday and some of the sweden ones. well i hope everything goes well for me tomorrow in school. my back is still aching. *sigh torn ligament. i got so many tests comin up. phy, chem, a-math and e-math. what's the world becoming into? or atleast singapore? study study study. gosh! the education system here is totally absolutely DISGUSTING! i made the biggest mistake by coming back! gross.

wow i dont know what i did but my blog kinda looks different. with the pictures and all. And my back is still Aching. Ngee Ann was great and we were so funkadelic. =) I so looove the pics especially the one with mr carrot and mr bunny. mr bunny wanted to leave me with mr carrot to take the photo, but i forced him. heheh we guys just had a lot of fun today. I liked it. I like the pictures. but i am still considering you know if i should take up Mass Comm or something else. i mean ambition was always to be a doctor.yeh. but i mean the four of us who went to np today will probably end up in np. kane and eugene in FSV me and leia in MCM. I am in the de-stressing mood now aka the honeymoon period. And I LIKE....

now this is my poem. my first one. Full of memories, floating around. Longing to go back, yet no luck. Wish i was there always there. Just to see the colours of your facewhen they change in phase. The times when you and me were so close together. So close that our souls got fused and got tangled together. No farewell between soullovers, did our relationship ever quiver? Until the day i went away in a rushwithout even telling you a last goodbye because i knew it would hurt you so much if i had said bye to thy, my sugarpie wow today its just the exact opposite of yesterday. i really really had a laugh at the hospital yesterday. so funny. I had a jab. not any normal one but on my butt! haha. my back is so much more better now. so many people really care about me. i am so touched. thank you people. really. maria and magda visited my blog. carrots tagged. hey bummy carrots. tmrw' s gonna be a long day. np in the morning, tuition in the afternoon and wedding atnight. my back is still aching terribly tho. nite.gtg do my tuition hw.

Oh my god! i can't even believe i did that but yes I CRIED! ha big time. i just went on and on and on. my god i really have great friends. they were like all around me trying to console me. and serene she was being so sweet. tapping my back like I'm a dog. Hur.. nut anyway you guys were so darn sweet. thank you really. i mean i just couldn't take it. here is some love to some people: Lay hwee: thanks for comforting me. I will never forget that. i really needed it.Don't worry too much about the chem prac marks k? Its real nuts. Yee huay:thanks for looking out for me. I'm not sure if you will be reading this, but anyway ..thanks.Love you. Serene: you too BABY! thanks for PATTING MY BACK! haha i suddenly felt like a dog but you know, i know you were trying your best. I mean when you were crying the last time i felt totally completely useless! i think that's how you felt? i dont know, but all i know is that you're a real cool pussy. Heh =) . I love you baby. If you don't let me call you baby, i'll cry. You wouldn't want that would you? I Love you. Mr vanessa and Miss Serena: I l love yo u both and thanks for comforting me as well. I was so terribly touched. love. Jerry: I think i was most comfortable in confiding with you about my problems today.You make a real good guy friend. thanks jerry. Remember we talk with our eyes! haha hao pengyou. Joshua and Vivian: Sorry guys. we had to leave you and go.But anyway thanks for whatever you did today to you know shine me up a little.=) love you. i got so much of love, to just like splash it all out but i can't now, cos my back is hurting and i have to go off now to the hospital! so later? ~ aloha

God! I am so freakin stressed!!!!!!!!! And I was thinking sec 4 is going to be so great! *dang. Gosh now I know how pressurized Lydia and ‘em felt last year. But come on, the starting of the year? School, work, council, dance and even debate! I mean I know I should have like prioritized my stuff But its just as if I have to do all of this. And hello when do I get my own time? Like free time. I just came back home! Can you imagine? Left my house at around 6-ish in the morning and I came back after almost 12 hours. Now that is really bad , innit? And my back, oh its really giving me lots of pain. And I had to withstand all of the pain all day long. This exactly why I hate the singapore education system. They expect you to participate or engage in different activities and also give so much of work back home to do. Its always rush rush rush. Stress stress stress. I didn’t feel this way until I went OUT of Singapore and CAME BACK. Maybe that’s the worst mistake I’ve ever made. Coming back to Singapore. Yeh I know I should have the love for the nation and all .yada yada yada. But who would? Which student would even feel like coming to school if they are under tremendous pressure? O I should prioritize? I am stuck between the things I have to do and the things I want to do. I don’t even have a choice anymore. Its always, “Lavanya have you done this?”. “Lavanya there’s practice today.” “ Lavanya we’re having a meeting today”. “ Lavanya maybe you should not be so absent-minded?”. I mean I really have. tried my best. I loved debating before. But now it has become more like a forceful thing A commitment. People may wonder now and then like you know when I talk to them I am all so cheerful and all but in my blog however, everything is just poured out. Like today for example. I’ve kept quiet for quite sometime. Not anymore!

i didn't go to schoool today. back injury. Darn. well atleast i managed to do some work around the house. atleast one problem at home is settled. but another has just arised. one of my family member is missing. i'm not gonna say much more. getting drowsy. I am turning to HIM for help. i hope He will show me the way. Amen.

yesterday i messed up my blog layout. today its done. but everything is just so sad. especially at home. You know i hate to be grouchy and moody but this...whatever shit has got me into this. not my cup of tea tho.Grouchyness. Is there any word like that ? hmph well i will be going to np for a couple of times this week. Thursday and Saturday. lotsa stuf to do. yesteday is a definitely a day to remeber. Ycss United Nation's day!

Oh god today was a blast! we people were so united. Serene you are so damn lucky.Dig that k. so many people. I'm one of them. and i am so proud of that.yes. here are some shoutouts to some people. Serene: I know i sort of lied to you abt something yeaterday but youknow it was just for fun, nothing serious, but you know after i came back today from you know school. I found out something.I cant really say everything here.I hate making choices and they are making me do it.Its every kid's mightmare.I found out about this after talking to you and serene that's why i didn't tell you. I didn't want to call you because you know you guys are having fun right now and you are still probably outside and i didn't want to disturb you all and i never left my house to go to bedok.Its that bad.Things are going on at home.People not talkin to each other.I hope you know what i mean. Every kid wouldn't want this to happen but looks like i'm stuck in it.I dont know what to do.help. Lydia: I'm so sorry if you felt loss in our school today.I couldnt be there to talk to you that much because of duty.Dont worry i'm sure we can solve the problem abt the cha cha thing k?keep me informed about when is your you- know-what-procedure- la. I dont wanna name it here. being a kid is tough sometimes.Choices, i hate em.