And you were my strength when I was down And you made me humble when I wouldn't bow I held on to your promise that you'd be around Where were you when I was alright Tell me, did you know I was alright You left me thinking I'd be alright Won't you come back to me. NRA later. dance lost me and I'm losing it.

In the light of the sun Is there anyone? Oh, it has begun Oh dear, you look so lost Your eyes are red when tears are shed Swirls you must have crossed, you said "You dont know me, you dont even care." Oh yeah, she said. "You dont know me and you dont wear my chains" Oh yeah… =/

" pick up the phone, i'm dialing your number.." so much like that song. dav& sarah came to cheer me up. so sorry,i wasn't entertaining enough. i know i suck. i don't know its just me, i cant smile now i know, i'm sorry and sarah i wasnt able to make you happy today. i just feel like going away and.. HUDA, "pick up the phone, i'm dialing your number." pick pick pick it up.i almost cried when you didn't pick up. i'm going through shit and I want to know your stuff. I want to know what you're going through, I want to be involved, i just.. want to be your friend, a friend in need. :( and you mean loads to me.[you have no idea]

life has been mundane. talked to all four. one was as usual very far and still beating. another very near but yet far with others. the other came to me like "what?". the enthuness was a shocking. and the last was,is, idk. feeling the same stuff? SUCKY. like how cfc and me feel, like how come we give more than we receive( selfish i know) i dont normally feel that way but for the past few days idk i'm mad? i'm not directly mad over something or in particular with anyone but i just feel like that. expecting attention and not getting it? and if i dont get, i drift away and umm avoid and yes my replies get mundane and sent with lesser smilies, cfc and ashley. this is getting you no where, lavan.

"[lavanyaaaa] i know its gorgeous. with the backgrnd and all aye? HEHEH. i miss my lava wava mava nava nya. ):" i miss you too QAZZ. KAP SOON LIKE YOU SAID. ;) REPLIES.( very overdue, so sorry. just so caught up with stuff) qazz: I'm a fat zebra crossing. a good one. and i know i'm your lovely too. I miss you MANY MANY. rae: Keong? yeah. he's nice. ah, i get the hint. i'll leave him to you. hudz: yeah now you know. Arsalan never leaves my heart and i can't do anything. Its like he's permanent there on the walls of my heart. It gets to me sometimes. All the Virgos in my heart are funny. Even if I'm mad at them and no matter how much I try to forget them, it never happens. I end up thinking more about them. The little things they do. The utmost special people. you know what i mean. ;) you my pretty as well. vanessa: That's why. see tsk tsk, getting old just like me. *sighs. ashley: yeah and i saw my face. wow. I mean something to you , am so goddamned touched ashley. My first love from our class(pastamania remember?) and yes i'm updating( sort of). +gloria: i am updating( sort of. busy la. darn) *lala:i saw you already. You're just sitting right infront of me now shouting "I'm SICK OF IT I TELL YOU!". period. -serena-: okay. I'll link you up. I mss you charbor kia! ree-boo-karr: you found me. yay! hehs. yeah i linked you already.coolios. =) eunice: I'm high cos of you! simple as that. hehs. CAT: wo xi huan ni. wo xiang ni. wo ai ni. :) i need to see you, my FEELAPATHIC soon. REPLIES DONE. i started on my design stuff for GRACOMM( finally) and debate's on tmrw and he submission for CATS is on thrusday. So the only breather will be my sis's birthday on Sunday. I can't wait. We have a plan. Life's been too busy for me and as much as I want to be with the people Iove, it just doesn't seem to work. I didn't see you like I always do on mondays. feels different, like part of the monday routine has been broken. i like it when you just smile and say hi. as simple as that makes my monday. i love it. i realise my hyperness has mellowed. what do you think LOVES? has it? and hudz, i dont know why but allthe virgos are playing a significant role in my life. yes yourself included. dont ask why cos'i dont know why. Only know that my life feels meaningful in simple ways ,like me msg-ing you and asking how you were and you replying you were fine. Just know that and yes you and the other two virgos and SARAH, the only leo. 24/7 my brain multi tasks between you guys more than school.

I realise I need an interval. my heart's on fire ; good one. Stolen You took away my heart

I'm LOST FOR WORDS. I didn't expect you to talk to me after what happened. I was so schocked when you spoke, when I walked past you just now. i will never forget that hi bye moment before( you know when) and you actually correctly assumed that i was the MCM type. Never did i expect this moment with you at 12.05 on the 21/5/06... i missed you; like my heart's falling with no where to fall :( sugar sugar how d'ya get so fly? oh and I LOVE MYYYY FAMILY. sometimes when i'm so lost, its my family and friends who come to my rescure and i felt it the other day. I just feel like saying THANK YOU and i love you cos' without you guys i wouldn't have pulled through. A good week ahead my hearts ;) oh and i just realised...( ashley can call me obsessed if you like) HUDZ sounds like HEARTS. LAV sounds like LOVE SARAH sounds( abit) like SAREE.

our quite pathetic dance. but it was fun performing tho. the first one was the best. the atmosphere and hudz was watching! wow. and i realised i need to shem em pounds off, esp to dance. disappointed now. I look like some balloon dancing. anyway its not the full video thanks to ashley's jammed computer. haha. I'M FAT. I need a thinner guy ; to remind myself. =/ and there i was trying to tell Sarah to stop um dieting?

loosen up my buttons baby. reunion yesterday. honestly( you know who's way) haha *grins i was looking forward to only one thing when i left the house, haha THE FIRST MEETING with my cheesecake hudz. I know I know. I was looking forward to the rest also but this one will be a bit different and yes it was when i first saw her. OMG. Jess should know. She was like ," why you so shy?". hahah how would i know? I feel intimidated by pretty girls and their curls. AND if they can dance, thats it, i'll be in LALA land. Oh and for guys umm i'll say that with Gen's blog assignment thing.(7 qualities of an idealpartner). I was soo looking forward to seeing my cheesecake huda dance. I was there at the main bus stop near the cc at like bukit timah cc at like 9.45. I should have gone. not waited. but i did and 3 157s past but jess wastn there. she came and we cabbed( yes crazy i know) to MI but too bad just whhen we entered we saw a group of amazingly exotic beautiful people clad in black and gold/yellow? same colour coordination as me? Next thought: where was huda? or more like which one? I remember cheesecake telling me i won't recognise her in her gear or smth. I DID, I DID!. They were in a group one by one or even two by two( sounds ciara no rihanna pon de replay. ;)) HAHAHA. walking from the canteen area to the umm towards the staircase upwards to the comp area thing. one by one they passed. jess and me were looking so intently.haha and then she came, 2nd last at the back. OMG SHOOT EM CURLS AND SMILE. beautiful. worst regret ever- not watching the dance,=/. Then huda, you came toward where we were sitting at the frotn benches, haha i was like OMG. thanks goodness( at that time) a call came or else i swear i would have just not done anything TOO MESMERIZED.. hahah JESS, mei nu right? TOLD YOU! even jess thinks so. ;) and the two kids are so adorable. I did faces and one of them smiled hehs. wawa? yeah i think so. so kawaii ;) but she didnt take the gift! OH YES BTW, I'M THE WINNER. haha sort of. actually I cheated la cos the gift wasnt accepted directly nor was it handed in directly. I went umm sideways. haha and when cheesecake said she didnt get it or have it, i was like OMG. OHNO. i badly wwanted her to have it since the oreo cheesecake thing didnt work out and i had such a great time in that process of making it. I bet MItchell was so envious of it. gorgeous ain't it? hehs. for a wonderful lady ; absolutely worth it. ;) oh the support for the first dance was way better. haha edgar and them. i was like," is huda here?" while i was dancing cos i definitely couldnt see w/o my specs so yeah but somehow wished she was there. but as i heard later, SHE WAS. OMG and also for the 2nd one w/ her family? thank you love for being so supportive of our dance. youre so beautiful ; inside out. I HEART YOU( i got the Sarah disease! hehs) and we clicked so well ;) yay! no weirdness. haha it was good to talk on he phone as well. you knw the one i told you about? the dropping hints one? hahaha OMG i'll update you about smth which happened. haha nth major but still smth cos he's go tthe same sign as you. LOL and as for arsalan, he still revolves around me. and your voice." NYAAAAAAAAAH" damn hilarious, hyena like. you make me happy! so cheesecake like. Then i saw all my classmates. hahaha almost all, except bendon. darn. haha JX is so nice i swear. BABA sec i guess. haha love is rewarding JX LOVE. hehs. knwo what i mean? that guy is a killer, go take him before he's taken! haha it was a good reunion and SAF is so loud and hyper. I like and i didnt know CHEESECAKE was this LOUD. haha "i take time to warm up to people." yeah right. pics below! qazz and me just realised online that we didnt take one with cheescake. next time. hahas i look like a walking FAT ZEBRA CROSSING. =/ btw i just realised the whole entry is about cheesecake. DEDICATED TO YOU THEN ;)

i'm soooo tired. aching all over. with only one song in my mind. two people in my heart and three assignments in hand. the song keeps playing over ,my eyes keep shutting but my heart is till beating. Once again, I think i'm in love. L-ly : i sooo miss you. sorry i havent been able to call, msg or talk much. SO SORRY LEIA dear :) i miss you and love you all the same! just know that. May : Thank you so much for coming down today! such an inspiration. I had a great time. Let's CRASH MI with our dance again! yeah woman! woho. heeeeeeeeee :) Carl : you biatch( you like it like that!), youre the MAN! lets strut our stuff on saturday. LOVE LOVE.~ hahahaa. you: you melt me all the time with your words and your touches. beware cos I'm entering your heart!( HAHAHAHHAHA LOL). hudz: I so don't know where you went! I need you for my inspiration, big time. Where are you cheesecake? ; when i need you now. :( Sarah : Lav Says: May 19th, 2006 at 12:47am I’m in you; always Sarah Says: May 19th, 2006 at 12:48am i know. i feel you. ;] (right below : our mum-daughter session at like 1 in the morn) i got aroused. heee :) done. i want cheesecake!!!!!!!! mummy buy for me! oh then again, i'm THE mommy for everyone. haha. Mitchell, Vanessa, Serena, Serene, J.Y, Joanne, Leia, Gloria, Sarah, Madeline,Brendon. . know what i mean? I think its just my tummy! [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: i dont know what else i can say but ILOVE YOU cos i so damn mean it. always. you know i do? its just special baby and you know if youre sad, i'll feel it cos I'm youre MOMMY!( okay so besides the point!hehs)(oh and you got a HOTYUMMY dad too.okay enough) just know that i love you and even if i cant teleport i just did it with my heart ; always with you sarah love. I lOVE YOU [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: i suddenly feel good hehs ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: lol ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: you're silly mommy ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: oh [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: why? [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: i aint okay ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: have you heard of the spill canvas? [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: okok [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: hmm nooo [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: why? ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: mummy 's as hawt as daddddddddy ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: ;] ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: they rock [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: noooooooooo [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: mw hawt? [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: are you blind maam? [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: *ma'am? ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. sends: Open(Alt+P) [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: hahaha ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: nooooooooo [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: yesssssssss [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: how come i love you so much? [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: *thinks [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: hmm [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: i cant find any answe to that you know [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: *answer [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: I SO SWEAR! ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: lol ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: omg la ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: youre going thru a ""so"" phase ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: lol. [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: HAHHAA I SOOO KNOW [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: *dangs [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: okays [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: hmmm yeah i still dont know ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: hahahas ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: well ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: sometimes somethings are better left unsolved ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: . ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: ;] [flipside]- Oh, baby, you're my lifetime fantasy says: yes yes ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: (maybe youre bi) ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: ;] ‪‍ ☆ sarah babysan. NOKS. phro. maybe it's best you leave me alone. it ends tonight. says: lol you so love this picture( tho i look like poo.) haha for you. I love you too!

What did I Do to deserve such a man so special in my life So many days and nights I get on the go while I sit and wait for mister right Baby, then came you Laidback with your sexy smile When you move your body you just drive me wild If you're feeling me, baby, tell me now Because I want you, I want you how very true. buttons by P.C.D is DAMMMM HOT MAMAS.

boogie woogie ; we're back to groovin' PHECDA reunites! We( May, KengLiang and me) went down to MI and THANK GOD we did because.. *drum rolls*. WE GOT PERMISSION TO PERFORM! YAY-ness! hahaha. weeeeeeeeee. see my happiness? We were so happy!!! Thanks Mrs Choy. :) Yes it was abit dead at first , the school. But then all of a sudden, wow we saw Mdm Za and Mdm Shamalah and Mrs Wee :). I was sooooo happy to see them! SO HAPPPPYY! We're having practice at Ngee Ann on thursday at 5.30. SEE YOU PHECDA-ians. :)

you were not like anything ; i've ever seen. I still wonder why you stopped, J. People just don't stop d-ing for no reason. I thought about it the whole day, J and I can't. :( somehow i'm feelin' you. darn. not good. hopefully tmrw will be good with my killer kiss! HURHURHURH. youre dead. those are my seniors I presume. NICE. I was a good girl today. Kudos to me. :) I did all of what was supposed to do today. All the recapping and revision. Medsoc yay! Oh, QAZZ and Ashley got so worried about joanne; divine and it was so hilarious I tell you. Ashley seemed so worried in that text that i got worried as well and i called divine up- she didnt pick up! DANG DANG DANG! bleahs. and then after talking to ashley for awhile I got a msg from her and yeah I ended up talking to my daughter. hee. divine, I missed you so much. Thank godness my sis is in your school or else I won't even have any connection man. OH, and please do come for MI carnival. You have to!!REUNION FOR ALL OF US PAE-ians, O6A1-ians, Phecda 2-ians. Its been long enough already. haha. We'll go to KAP to eat after that. perfect. haha honestly(the leia way) i've had enough of MAC's but it's KAP- too many memories. :) So its monday tomorrow. Lect day. The S(s) will be in full force again. me, Shafik, Sabrina, Steph. Maybe it's good I'm Sasha i guess. Sarah(my gl) thinks its a bimbo face name. whatever *rolls eyes. hee. I'm lovin' my name. IMAGINE... Lavanya Sasha Vaziri. ohman. been talking to bibbin. better now then the last time when silence was our middleman. our family talk again! 8 kids. :) will you be my sugardaddy again? hahahhalallalaaaa. Lavanya 05/13/2006 I like all of you, can I TAKE YOU? :) hehs Liyana Posted 05/14/2006 you got it sexy. *kiss kiss* => HAHAHAHAHA.

why did you stop?

why did you stop? when you were doing it all along and just left it like that and when asked why you said,"no reasons." and i'm suppose to just believe and say,"OH?". no way. it was something you enjoyed doing i'm sure but something must have happened... darn, i wanna see you move J. *sad. we have 3 years ahead and yes you owe me STUFF. you-know-what. Its damn embarrassing to name it here but you know it.*grins. i dont think you would ever come here tho but anyhow lets just say you are like the moon. mystical and a VIRGO. man... a group of people went mad today at SAM. who were present? Gloria, Gen, Gavin, Brian, Jorge( be my sugardaddy?hehs.), Jaime(hey roy!*melts), Sarah( paki Bit hehs.) and liyan( constipated stuff). JORGE one helluva photographer. i like his shots. We were taking pics at SAM and it s a beautiful place to take shots i tell you, the lightings, the paintings and all. awesome. shall put up the pics soon. jorge, you freaked me out abit tho, the later bit. THANKS GOD jaime saved me by sitting beside me at LJS at plaza singapura.OMG when i said to shariffa, "yeah youre sarah and i'm sasha huh?"..she went"yeah hey sasha!"(seductively looking from top to heel.) ahaha i nearly died, thanks god jorge shared the hotness. SARAH paki bit, SASHA indian bit loves you, you jackass. :)
met up with my mum, dad & sis surprised me later. haha by coming. bought a couple of things. hehs*grins. a top, some 3/4 thing, a pants and SHOES. coolios.
MOMMY'S DAY soon :) like now. HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY! I LOVE YOU ; it cant get any simpler.

i just realised, i've been online alot these days. Like practically everyday. I think it was ever since "they' came in. haha the anticipation of waiting for "them" to come can just kill you. No kidding. And when they DON'T come, it's even worse. bleahs but when they do, its total HEAVEN. okay i think i shall stop about this here.
Phecda 2 reunion at cine. OMG i swear SULAS is in love with me. She keeps laughing all the time(HYENA) when i say the slightest things and me and min hui will go "err" haha. damn weird expressions. where? AT LJS. wonder why those girls were staring at us. OH!!! i know already! =P hehs. never mind i shall keep that to myself. hehs.
then off we went to galilee. just like yestermonths. ;) i took so nice pics k of my nanny, YOU LOOK SO PRETTY TODAY, NANNY! I swear! i could't take my eyes off. hope your other-half doesn't see this, i'll be SO DEAD. you know what i mean. hurhur. The pics were so nice.
I ATE NEW YORK CHEESECAKE!! and all i could of think was huda. MY CHEESECAKE :) . It was absolutely wonderful and showed her picture to jesslyn, princess, she was like 'YEAH YEAH!".haha now you know princess, you know what to do. Take care of your goddess, just like the chessboard. LOL pretty right? I KNOW. * faints and some people say my flavour's hot.. PLEASE.... i should place the mirror infront of you. hehs. and yes i'm obsessed with CURLS. damn fine. can't wait for next tuesday .. and saturday cos i'llbe in MI. yes tuesday as well. haha and saturday. GOT SHOW TO WATCH MAN( the nanny meaning of show. LOL). i'll never let you get close to me nor your gift but i'll give you one without you even realising. i'll watch you while i hide. haha

leia Posted 09/03/2005 MAMA. =x carpenter's LOOOVE to screw, don't they? LOLs. & plumbers just go crazy about checking out pipes huh? heEz! OMGosh. we look like superheroes. only i look more of a still-standing-strong-after-fighting-just-to-pose-for-picture supergirl? HAHAs. i <3 you MA. *hugs* NOT LESBIAN AHH! & yes, i'm going to miss you the most too when you leave. the thought of it sorta makes me feel like crying. toodles~
** thats my L-ly, boy i remember that time when i was talking to that CARL. Liyana | 05/06/2006 hoi u sexy hair. u rock my world with ur super hott hair. and ur sexy body heheheh and ur sexy dance moves (I SAW IT.camp) and ur super duper extra hott SMILE. love! =>
** you got to be kidding, liyana. thomasina Posted 04/19/2006 If the silence takes you Then I hope it takes me too So brown eyes I hold you near Cause you’re the only song I want to hear *HUGS* i'll melt you. heat you up. and make shure you stay in my embrace. sarah hearts you!!! *jumps around*
** aroused. hee LOL Måndag 8:e maj 2006, kl 20:52 (#906 - obesvarat) Lillaflikkan90 F16 från Karlskrona i Blekinge län Jaaag SAKNAAAR DIIIIIG LAAAVA ;( - hehe yeah very weird : D - when are you coming back to sweden dear? we miss you over here Puss :P ** I CANT DO NOTHING. JULIE LARSSON, i miss you guys there too, It's not good here ; not the same. I LOVE YOU. i know what you want, you know i got it. wonder how hudz celebrating. I miss her, gon' eat her tmrw. I meant at town. PHECDA 2 reunion. at cafe cartel. hope you had a good day huda. CHEERING. i got to see you move. :)

my heart says: why do i have to do so many things. why am i so tired all the time why do i feel easily down( i hate it cos it makes others down) why am i easily getting stressed up when i dont normally. how come there's no attention? do i have friends? what do i say to friends who ask what happened to me. what do i say to the people whom i love. what do i say to them when they ask me if i'm okay.(they know when i'm not) what do i say when they tell me i'm too busy for them. why do i still stay back and wait for them when i know i'll be only happy for awhile and contented and then i'll be back to shitmode. where is the love. where is the time. where am i? and i love you, you know who you are. and dont get me a present, you be present. love.

temperature;high it up


shafik still in after shock trauma- itsokay :)
the creatures are OUT!





you know the cap for this! MAJOR HOTNESS heeee MONDAY MADNESS. the day i get to be with Steph, Sab and Shafik. All Ss. hmmmaybe i shouls get them to start calling me Sasha. coolios .camwhores really. The day started off okay. the usual 334-mrt to clementi-184 or 154-route to school. come to think of it MI is damn close to NP *thinks, hmm. ohwells so we had our couple of lectures and douglas kwon, our locvidprod teacher is so hilarious that i think if sunshine would lose to him! our LAUGHING BUDDHA. i dont know, i didnt really talk much because i was trying to concentrate. Sab has to stuff up on jellybeans but atleast i had my rootbear and hershys. YUM.
I miss lina baby! gosh she's got beautiful eyelashes I tell you. hehs. she said she'll woo me if i were a guy! *DANG. hearing this too much. wrong! hehs. anyway babe, hope you are feeling better! the time is like 1 plus and I'm still up. Something's so wrong man. i can't sleep early anymore and oh I have to listen to music first before i sleep.- induced sleeping. the projects are coming now and hopefully I can handle them. I wonder why is he's always with them? and its not that they are exactly close to us*. hmm. but she's pretty. hee that sweet incident at the bowling party. sometimes when i sleep i still feel like I'm in sweden and i'd know that even then the person i love was just above me. hee :) and i could remember the loook my mum gave when he offered to help us with out stuff into that store room thing outside his place and how he was so right in time to impress my mum and it did. a virgo, a typical one.
had a nice talk with Dav on the way back. cool how he manged to find THE cca he wanted to and passionate about it. I'm sure the CCA will do well in time to come. With people like you, no worries man :) and he's getting nicer and HORNIER by the day. OMG and i realise I'm losing my hyperness and it was absolutely wonderful to see queen just through ther window atthe library. missed her awfully lot.

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart. You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer... And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories. As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your True Love Is an Aries

Why you'll love an Aries: An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo you Never boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave! Why an Aries will love you: You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries... And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

the last part means alot.

gasolina; yankee yum

me. 1. I love travelling.
2. I love choc. HERSHYs *faints.
3. I associate numbers with the people i love( like their bdays and stuff)
4. long runs on my own ; leaves me time to reflect and at the same time, shed 'em off. hee.I like to get all sweaty.oh and eyecandying =P
5.I have a thing for curly hair. i dont't have it sadly. Not frizzy but just curl. Liyanah , Leia( maybe not so much) and huda? No babe Liyanah, you have IT.
6) and a thing for short hair. as you might have known.
7) I LOVE PEOPLE WHO CAN
Dance

. I'll feel the connection. I'm obsessed with people who can dance, really.It makes me lose control. hee.
8) icre cream freak. I love THE COOKIES 'n' CREME.
9) I've just passed by places or too the mrt and the bus just to pass by places so that i "happen" to bump into people i know and trust me if your instinct ever gets strong just go COS IT WORKS most of the time. :)
10) have an affair with d.b since the longest time ever and his wife, for awhile.
11) horoscopes are my addiction and yes i'll associate them withmy loved ones too( sometimes i read 'em up for them too and boy do they actually mean what they mean.
12) always wanted to have long hair but failed to. guess why? i dont like the hair behind my neck! So warm. hee maybe one day I'll have. I actually had it. You can see it on my IC. My friends said i looked pretty..*considers.. NAH..
13) I got the hots for JESSICA ALBA. I like that way she presents herself and the unique-ness she exudes and boy those dance moves. OWW! 14) have this thing for gus with bushy eyebows, not really bushy bushy but oh you know, yep. and that jawline. OHMAN. that persian/ middle eastern look. OOO.
15) an absolute fasicantion for the moon. i dont know sometimes even if i'm happy or sad or whatever i'm feeling, if i just look at the moon, i get this assured feeling and its wonderful. :)
16) don't really fance horror movies . always get grabbed and screamed into by my friends and cousins. hehs maybe cos I look bold enough with my BIG frame? i dont know.
17) I like to see my friends and my people smiling and it pains when i cant do nothing tocheer them up , i feel helpless man.
18) I never believe in just diets to lose weight and never in slimming pills. that's entirely for you know who. Marketers prey( as we've learnt from PRIMARCOMM). exercise and healthy diet PEOPLE but i never seemed to lose either but i dont care!
19) Affectionate gestures are a big yum to me! Huge famn of that because I'm open with my emotions. :)
20) There was once when i used only my left hand for quite a long time just to see how it was and i wanted to be insync with my boyfriend, um ex-boyfriend. darn.
21) I love sambal belachan kangkong, i can never leave those out when we go for big family seafood trips.
22) I love sweet popcorn and when I'm really HUNGRY i can eat two of em big ones! haha. OH AND I LOVE CHEESECAKES. all kind of it! from the new york big ones to the small fry ones oh oh and CHOC BROWNIES! with creme. HMMM
well there you have, 22 um facts about me. Why 22? haha cos its associated with my birthday? *told you! have a good week people. couple of phecda-ians reunite upcoming wednesday! soccer on wednesday! holiday on friday! a meet up phecda 2? LOVE YOU ALL.:) CHEESECAKE, saya cinta kamu! hehs.

love and be loved ; the greatest


I'll do the replies to the um replies here :)
kAren: Yes Karen, I haven't seen you in a long time, just talked to your sis! You guys take care okay. Any problems at all especially concerning your sister, ask her to gimme a call. I'm here for my daughter Mitchell and her sister and anytime :)
+gloria: haha how would I not know if i'm just beside you spasming in class? OHFORSURE. I love, T104. especially drama mama gloria.
may: MAYI dear, thanks woman. I am also very happy. So glad we might be able to perform again and thanks man for the support! I bet youre damn excited innit? I CAN TELL. hee love you mayi dear. :)
fida: h.g :) haha YAY thanks woman :)*hugs. All credit to you guys man. I was so down the other day, you guys cheered me on! *hugs. LOVE.
sabrina: myCRESENT!yeah I got to send you that hotglasskiss. hehs. miss you too. I'll give you one nice hot hug when i see you! *loves
rae: hugs and kisses to my most DROP DEAD FUNNY WOMAN. no I won't die. hopefully *crosses fingers. even if i do, i have you by my side :)
ASHES: I MISS YOU TOO! quick come online on the 18th and you'll have a treat. hehs * you know what.
L-ly: but the picture is beautiful love :) I like it, its very you somehow. I need to go for my therapy with you to sentosa soon! Your sis finished it ALL UP? So unfair. =P now i know how you feel at home. Intimidating huh? sulks. neh mind, i shall be your elder sis and girlfriend! hee :)
joystick is les: haha how can i not?*HOTS. hehs I heart you too. I want to squeeze em sides! LALLALALA.*fingering. heee. That's a moment i would like to keep in my heart. *hugs.
I'll have JOYstick all my life and i want other mummy too! hee.*hugs many many.
hudz: I thought so because you'venever(in the entire time I've spoken to you) been away for so long. Its okay. I'm still finding a nick for you. a suitable one.*thinks...*smiles. Thanks . I'm going to NRA. dig that! Shall shake shake SHAKE. *grins.I LOVE CHEESECAKE.*jumps up and obviously down.HAHA
star: I LOVEEE YOUR NAME because it is so connected to the MOON.. I LIKE :) maybe you should call me Moon next time. I'll get all mystical and high and SPIN you off high and crazy.*hugs. love you
minhui: myHOUSEY! I miss your crazyness and hyena laughter like this.. HURHURHRURHURHHR. can't wait to see you guys soon! I MISS YOU :( thinking of you anyway ; makes me happy!
I'm feeling LOVED today, even if I die( its okay) I'll be so happy because I'm surroundedby people who love me so much. I can't ask for more.seriously. OH, one dumb thing i did. UBER DUMBNESS! I went to research on JAMES. Hudz's fascination(somethign which mesmerized me) so I had to see for myself um more like read for myself so I was all ready decided to follow my dad who was going to bedok to gets settle some stuff and we were to stop at the jurong regional library. We parked the car and went to the front and *dang! The LIBRARY WAS CLOSED! I'm so DUMB right! *shys. I felt so stupid. Then off to Bedok and then we wanted to eat. Tampnes Mall came to mind but OMG that place is like a mini Orchard area, even during the weekdays. Been there so many times and i see shirley and some others at times but we didnt go there. went to east coast instead! HAHAHA EVEN MORE PEOPLE!
my sis is feeling down cos she didnt go for that variety thing just now and the other sis irritated my papi. Papi stormed out and shouted. felt damn weird. even mum said so. Are you okay papi? sometimes it is hard to click with you papi, but I still love you.Don't mistake me for not loving you when i shout or argue, its only because of that, that i shout ; I LOVE YOU PAPI.
I love my family, I love my friends. SARAH. oh sarah daughter, I'm here okay?*hugs. les partner is always here.*points to um your heart?hehs. smile and get high cos i get high and HIGH-ing with you is WOAH! *winks. HUDZ seasons may change, winter to spring, but I love you, until the end of time. THREE WORDS. I HEART YOU.nah.. I LOVE YOU! smile; i'm hooked. =)

flipside ; just clap for me mami

PHECDA DANCE BUSK/PERFORMANCE DURING MI CARNIVAL.( any takers?) Holler PHECDA-ian;) Well its been long. I was thinking, why not we perform our phecda dance during the Mi carnival. A friend suggested us to busk our dance! Are you guys up for it? Well, we got to go down to the school(or rather up.hehs) and talk the people in in-charge during the weekdays so that we can catchand maybe practice maybe on friday and saturday? Let me know people. A PHECDA DANCE REUNION. YEAH MAN! via these ways: Friendster/ Msn : Lavanya_gal_15@hotmail.com Hp: 81637332 blog : http://veramoda.blogspot.com(here duh. haha) ( emailing me or texting me will be better options because I amnot always online) Thank you :) so much for advertisement. Sarah sarah, she grabbed me in town. OUT OF A SUDDEN. from nowhere.NICE. the minutes i had with you was :) YUMMY. hurhruhhrr. and the joystick is nice. I bet youre dad saw us la. haha that means now he thinks youre les. YAY! ( haha you happy right?) I finally got a portion of my CHEESECAKE. but it went off halfway. BUT I STILL HAD IT. haha i missed cheesecake. my friends think i'm crazy. I dont care. hee.

kudos ; give it up for

Three words! I G O T I N.
OMG. That felt food and still feels good. I am part of the NRA family in Np :) yay. my last post was full of -core haha but now I CANT BE HAPPIER. I shouted the whole place and randomned and did alot of crazy stuff. I just could'nt help it. This is what i wanted from day one. I AM HAPPY. Bibbin was my inspiration. It works al the time. I just had to umm fantasize*grins.The NRA people were so friendly really, noy at all like what i heard. lesson learnt : NEVER BE DECEIVED BY RUMOURS. I didn't :) First i had to register. Jaime came along. So my number was 38 and i got maskingtap-ed by this dancer. HOTHOT. lips are sealed. GUYS? hmmm no one i think. Eh no. bling is taking me away day by day. I went to school with this blurred head. wonder why and my gracomm class was n the 7th level. I got up to the block quite , up that hill.*faints and so i was listening to take the lead soundtrack, i think it was STOP. So yeah and the lift stopped at 7th level so i got off and turned right and opened the door and it couldn't be opened. The other door on the right, can't be open as well. called bling(jaime) :) he was like
"Roy(OMG hehs) where are you?" " I'm already here at the seventh level, but all the doors are locked and i can't get in" " where are you exactly Roy?" "I'm at the lift area there." "Ok you wait, I'll come roy"... after like a minute... " Where are you Roy? I don't see you" "I'm just right here at the lift area." "I'm also there." So i knew something was wrong, so I went to check that floor board thing near the lifts and *DANG I was at the 6th not 7th and I told that to Jaime and he was like.. "OMG you so blur Roy hee".
after every sentence there's a Roy and its not just Roy
I don't evenknow why I'm up so late. Well tomorrow's going to be a short day. From 8-11( normally it ends earlier). I am tired, very tired but i just wanted to write up. Oh and Pei han nanny, YOU WERE IN NP! you nehneh . I heard from fifi and k.l like just after you left when they came over to canteen one to eat. I miss you nanny :( I miss alot of people. MANY MANY. satu. Leia did this :) sweet L-ly. I miss spending time with her on that sofa in school. Man, i miss you swan :) dua. AMON!!! gosh i so miss this king! KUNG E HAN! our favourite :) hope he's doing fine with his daddy *grins. My secondary school friends. I MISS THEM.Well most of them are in my school right now. You know sometimes its still difficult to say Np as "my school". In my mind and heart, my school still=yuan ching. OHMAN. =/ well we still have the dinner miss ong promised us. In June. till then, I love you guys so terribly ; it'll never be the same. P2. at my birthday. PHECDA 2. gosh it was so fun . My relatives, family, friends from sec sch, my class, you guys. AWESOME. I couldnt ask for more really. I SO MISS THAT DAY WITH YOU GUYS. That bowling session. We're meeting up on Vesak Day. Finally we are over withthe planning process and ahead with the date. I can't wait. Oh and , this person, love. I don't know why, I miss you . especially online. I'll be busy the coming days too so online-ing will be quite off i guess. I hope you;re managing well with cheerleading, dance , lessons, family, TheBoy moments*grins and your dancestuff, love. Sleep well, drink water, eat well and have fun. miss you. replies: fadz: yay! cool :) you sure are as crazy as her! =) hudz: me angry with you? THAT will NEVER happen pls. haha how to ; will never be. ray: ohno! ray? OH I KNOW WHO! hey there. youre nice too! hehs. yeehuay( dorothy): Thanks yeehuay words from the heart ; never fail. I will darling for you. hee. gloria: haha as of always like you do in class. HYPER US. yeah baby, never better. I LOVE MYSELF. L-ly: I still want cake!!! UMMMMM. I want you, delicious. hee. yeeshian: MENTAL PETAL! i know i know. we will for sure. ITS MI carnival soon. i've got many people my eyes are seaching for. YOU(the person reading) are definitely one of them! holler for the day: And I see you can run it, run it!

teach me how to dance


Something so rightfully feels so terribly wrong. I need inspiration. I got a audition later but i dont have that umm zest I normally do. period. bibbin, shall be my insipration. I'll do it for him. I'll come back with good news. This one's for you Bibbin. *only JAIME's making me laugh.*hehs.

my words for you, huda

Memories come As times passes by. Taking me to a place Which was rich and divine.
Thoughts carried concern Gestures gave love, Will there ever be a place like that on earth?
Then came you With that alluring enchantment Which exuded sensuality Bred with Hypnotic ecstasy
That passion for James And that fascination for books. Words came to mind But never got out on time
How I regret this now, If only time could be reversed To the chimes of my heart. If only time could rewind it to That moment of light
If I had just smiled And said hi.

I'm all yours, mami.

"Smile For Me Mommy I love Lavy! Oh Lavy! I love Lavy! She's silly yet cool! She's spontaneous yet collected! She's crazy yet serious! Now that's whack! She was there when I was bleeding tears at 2 am despite knowing me as a friend for just hmm less than a week? Tell me she's great! Tell me she's awesome! Tell me she's lovely! Now tell me she'll stay by me forever and ever? I love her for goodness sake! She's so sweet..she checks up on me morning or night! The kind of friend you never want to have to lose! NOW NOW LAVY...You're never going anywhere away from me!"

I am all yours, mami. Keep me inside that special folder of yours and I'll never leave. Now you know. I've not been not doing much. I'm just doing what a FRIEND would do. She was the one who was there for me before her breakdown( i hate that ):
"Hey darlz, u Ok? whats up? Sugar to the rescue!"
when i had a breakdown about you-know-who. =/ just look at this...
I've missed too much ; never to get it back. *pauses*
anyhow, soccer was good today. Jaime had to shout "ROY!" all the way from the top and everybody gave me "that" look( huda should know!) hehs, but he disappointed me in the afternoon by not.. oh wells. he has to compensate tomorrow but for now he's forgiven! :) kidding.After that it was uber boring CATS and then free for the day.It was such KISSMANIA FOR ME. Is kissing me the IN thing( I'm trying to sound humble here). Jaime(the real one), Steph(Naga),Star(Naga) Evan(and Sarah(phew) all did just that. HEEE. i felt like a small kid.SO LOVED.had fun with different people.The Nagarians, The sports camp people, my classmates, strangers whom knew but i had no clue who the were. weird.
maybe its like the me-and-huda thing huh. I'll never forget. How I wish I would just bump into you love when I past by clementi mrt stn every single morning and evening.I saw so many MI people but my eyes only searched for one which had nice hazel eyes, crazily hot hair and that melting smile. Till now, no luck. =/ one day hopefully!but what would I do when i see you? That's left to be thought.hmm* fantasizes* hehs.I barely know her man, Like for a week. But it feels eternal and i totally love it. She says things exactly the way i want.What she wrote on her blog for me is exactly how i feek about her. SERIOUS. She's crazy and horny( hehs cos she knws what goes on between me and my horny friends) but at the same time she's so mature and I liek the way she handles situations- very step by step.She's oh so enchanting but at the same time hyper and cute! not many people can carry off that you know. Cool & cute and she's a virgo. THAT CAPTIVATING AURA! Tell me about it! *melts melts.

the heart grows fonder ; teach me how to forget Alright another saddistic night gone. I don't know why, sometimes i feel so high with all the loved people around me and all but sometimes i just feel so low like no one's there and this, has been increasing for quite soemtimes since this year.Like whatthe hell is wrong. I don't know. I ask this question over and over but only to find myself in the same situation. If tomorrow never cum- hehe JAIME. he's makingme laugh, sitting across and just looking. OHMYGOD. *freaks. and he loves to disturb me all the time.hehe. SARAH. ohman. *hugs. LALALALA. HUDA. darn sweet I swear. You're lucky I didn't put up your BIKINI picture. HAHA people will start asking for your numbers i SWEAR!. missed you. :) and I'm sos sorry i feel so helpless with you and the BOY's issue. I feel bad I cant help. I LOVE YOU. so sorry =/.

It ain't funny ; you did it again. Its a new month and it started with a little celebration in my house. The pictures speak for themselves I guess. I am such a JACKASS. Or maybe could make ROYASS. Kind of dark but ohwells. That's my youngest sister Prev in the last two pictures with me. The lil' wannabe jackass. It was not my birthday. It was my former / current tuition teacher of my sister's birthday. She's one helluva woman I tell you. After two years of overseas-ing our mother tongue was totally crap. She took us up and gave us LOTTS of work to do and I think i worked hard too.It is kudos to her. Thanks teacher and have a good day today. Surprised huh? all in the name of love :) I'm feeling lousy. I don't know why. Umm maybe I need a lil' attention. Maybe I just need to go to school. Maybe, I just miss him. more like, my heart misses him. I hate this feeling and no one can un-do it but bibbin. Complicated? Thats the way it is. And why do I feel that, it'll never be OKAY again. It'll never happen. With what's going on. Jag fattar det inte! Jag svar arsalan, om du bara.. jag vet inte. Jag saknar dig, jattemycket. Fan.. can I just rewind it all to oct '03. I miss you.