please.

whatever I can't be bothered. well that's what I think. I don't care. talk if you want to. don't talkif you don't want to. but where are you when i needed you? i remember seeing myself there. fuck it. all the best. granny, please don't go.

GLO the wonderful( riiight): yes my dear. I had a wonderful holiday. First few days weren't that good because..yeah but it was good. I miss you too, charbokia. JASSSHOLE: yes yes the kiss entry is up! yay *smiles* I LIKE. missed you. MICH: i want to see you soon! when when when? i want hug please.... MUSE! :) nitha: well school is starting soon. SUCKY but atleast i get to see you you huggable thing. Hope all's fine my dear with you and d! heart you!!! ;] Jaime: well i'm back now and you guys seemed to have had so much of fun. :/ sohhwee: MY AG! yes please. i am so puttling up THAT picture when i get hold of it. you'll be amazed. TURN ME ON MAN. meet up soon on; samsung phone user! x) and yes adorable! merry christmas to you toooo! Princess Wannable( go on dreaming pleasee): I am back I am back and hello talk until so long la please. ear pain. if i ever die of radiation y'all know who to look at. the most shiny thing. haha diamond luh. :p see you soon! sammie: OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG sammie SAMMIE SAAAAAAAAAAAMIIIIEEE! I MISSS YOU MISSS YOU MISSSSSS YOU . the same to you! so happy to see you here(blog duh!!!). i miss the KAIA gang! haha SEX-TOY. LOL ling*: i miss chatting with you too. big time! and like i didn't miss you please!! OK LAME. and merry christmas to you tooo and yes i saw yourblog even before you told me you changed your link. hahaha know your link by heart luh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN! and cheers to that food date we have at the endof the sem and that thing i am going to give you! and no TOILET ROLLS YOU NEH NEH POK FOODIE WOMAN! and Leia! YOU L-LY SUDDENLY CALL ME ON THE PHONE-Y! seeing you tomorrow? you look so japanese white i dont know for what reason in this picture. No you're not F U G L Y. you're just a swan( remember that poem?) heh ;] COOLO( this reminds me of You).

If i wrote you a symphony..
so nice.
I like the song.
yesterday night was right/wrong?
I don't know.
I only know i wasn't neutral.
ohwells.
*smiles*


I don't know why but i don't really like what I wrote before. See,
even parthe told the same thing. That my blog is emo nowadays and her
doesn't like it.
AIYAH fuck it la.
hahahahahaa.

OMG SPEECH LATER!
impromtu somemore.
HOPE I don't die seriously.
I HAVE TO PUT ALL OF IT BEHIND ME!
I know i can do it.
but she was so disappointing today.
like ^%^$%$&^$*^%^^.
so different from yesterday.
SIGH

OKAY WISH ME LUCK.
speech in few minutes time!

LALALALALALALALALALA.
;]

=)

This is it. I realised i have been drowning myself into too much of emotional stuff that it's been talking away my energy(?). It's
unfair to myself .I guess I thought too much at the point of time. Chairman said loving someone is painful. Well to me, it
was not that loving the someone part which was painful( i realised quite sometime ago), it's when you expect too
much out of it. That's when it kills you because you're disappointed. It did kill me to the point i wouldn't even know why i was
crying. Killed me right there but that was then.

Thinking ahead, I have a goal. To do better in life. To stop expecting. I'll let the longing feeling go for that complete feeling.
If it comes, it'll come. That's what I feel right now. The love still continues for the people around me. That wouldn't
change. I am going to give my best in everything I do. For school and for dance.I am so going to get all those techniques and
sharper movements in. I am going to sleep early everyday from now on so that i don't get the headaches i normally
do the next day when i don't have enough sleep.( weekends are an exception. CONFERENCES with Baby G's)
( heckthe spelling).

I just want to concentrate.
I want to be a better woman.
for one person.
myself, Lavanya.
=)

I'll do it.
*smiles*

and my Dear friends and family,
I love you all!


Imaflirt and spoon,
The two people who made me realise sides of me I never knew and you guys are partly the reason how I am the person I am
right now and i thank you for everything.
I love the two of you.
more than you know.( however much.)

Love,
L.



spoon, your lasagne was ORGASM to the IC.
*hugs*

p.s: ashley, as long as you like, it doesn't matter. =)

Jolynn: hello jolynn. You are so funny i swear.*thinksLJS* funny funny. chesthair. hahahahaa

genn-: yes love I saw. Thank you. DOODLES are good. ;]

eunice:yeah so sorry i couldn't pick up your phonecall! to morw IAC lessons? heee.

cantabile: You already did and i want to see you again and again and again you pretty thing.( with or without gina) I miss her tooo. alot. ;]

Youre determined..
You think youre trying to forget her
but you arent. I think youre still waiting,
hoping for her to change her mind arent you?
Well however cliché, you always want what you cant have.
Seriously you can divert your attention if willing..
But you just gave all of Lavanya in. To her.

03:05:16
8-Oct-06

Yea cos youre kinda physically with him but almost
mentally stuck with her? Time will heal <: just patience
& more self time. I hope you can shut your eyes & think.
Think about now. Not the past, but everything possible
That can make your now pleasant! <: <:

03:37:55
8-Oct-06


I am staring and I dont know what to type.

I miss you Sabrina =/ VERAMODAAAAA,
LOVELYDADAAAAAA.

haha.=)

helloYOU.
it's beeen long.

;]

and I missed Magda's birthday!

DIE AH.

i miss you magdalena sandomierska.
She's Polish.
Beautiful deep blue eyes you can look into for long.
=)

dance later .
I need to talk to Ann.

AND,

It's going to be so awkward.
haha we'll see. LIkeable eh. LOl